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softestsin) wrote2011-05-30 01:29 pm
softestsin) wrote2011-05-30 01:29 pm
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Another baby ...
... it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter at all.
I got through it once. I outsmarted that entire situation, didn't I? Destin never even talks about Violet, anymore. I'd be surprised if he saw her more than a few times a week. I burned that bridge once, and I can do it again.
... it's ... it's hard, though. Sometimes ... sometimes it feels like it's all a big lie, everything I say to him, anymore. All he talks about is how angry he is at his Father, how exhausted he is, and that's ... my fault. And I can only just lie and ...
But it's worth it. It is. I'm not sorry. I did it once, and I'll do it again.
I'm so tired of everything about this life, now. I don't ... I rarely see my family, I have to pretend to be in love with my only real friend, and all I do is work on the books and wait for Destin and lie.
...
Another baby ...
... it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter at all.
I got through it once. I outsmarted that entire situation, didn't I? Destin never even talks about Violet, anymore. I'd be surprised if he saw her more than a few times a week. I burned that bridge once, and I can do it again.
... it's ... it's hard, though. Sometimes ... sometimes it feels like it's all a big lie, everything I say to him, anymore. All he talks about is how angry he is at his Father, how exhausted he is, and that's ... my fault. And I can only just lie and ...
But it's worth it. It is. I'm not sorry. I did it once, and I'll do it again.
I'm so tired of everything about this life, now. I don't ... I rarely see my family, I have to pretend to be in love with my only real friend, and all I do is work on the books and wait for Destin and lie.
...